Saturn Return and All that comes with it....

So I'm approaching the age of 28, which seems like kind of a blah age to turn.  Its not quite 30 and its not as exciting as 25, its just 28.  Well, sometime between the ages of 28-30 it is said that Saturn will "return" to the same place that it was in the sky at the time that you were born and with this astrological adjustment comes a major shift in your life.  Probably most people have never heard of this and most people would say they didn't notice anything different.  But basically it is the universes way of telling you to grow up and become a real adult.  

I have no idea if this is actually what is happening to me right now but something has changed in my life recently.  Since I found out I was pregnant and then had my little O, that's pretty much all I've thought about and done.  Get ready for the baby, have the baby, raise the baby and be a mom.  And I've loved it.  But recently I've been feeling this ache to get back in touch with who I am as a person (and who I was before I got pregnant).  I know that being a mom is a huge part of my life and it is something I have always wanted to be, but it is not the only thing I want defining me.  I still feel like I have a deeper calling.  Without going into those details I'll just tell you that it can be intense spending hours and days thinking about these very large questions and trying to "figure it all out".  I'm sure lots of you know what I'm talking about.  

The other major thing that I seem to spend my time pondering is relationships.  The two major types; my partner and my friends.  What does it mean to be in a relationship with someone? And what exactly do I want from my relationship? And what does he want from our relationship? And what does our commitment look like and is that satisfactory? These things we are working out together and it has been great to talk about, much needed actually.  

As for friendships.  I realized I had to reach out to my friends and let them know that I needed them.  I also read this great article, Making Friends As An Adult, because A CUP OF JO blogger Joanna had written a great post on the issue.  When I opened her blog that night I couldn't believe how much that article was calling out to me.  I am at a point in my life where I want to hang out with friends but I'm finding my friend pool to have diminished to a few acquaintances that I never go that deep into conversation with, a few great friends (who mostly live in NY) and people I work with (who basically keep there distance from friendship because I'm technically their boss).  So that narrows it down to about 2 people.  And I felt awkward about reaching out to them because I knew that chances were slim that they would have the time to hang out with me, since I know their lives are as busy as mine.  But I did reach out and already I am feeling a ton better.  Thanks friends!!! 

So after all this, did any of you experience your Saturn Return before turning 30?  I'd love to hear about it.  Thanks for reading and having a lovely weekend!

Meg 


ps. did you know that the No Doubt albume "Return of the Saturn" got its name because Gwen was 29 when she was writing it and she felt it reflected her Saturn Return? :)

Blogger Remorse

Just wanted to share with you all why I abandoned my blog....

After finally working up the courage to start a blog and then actually post something, I had what one might call blogger remorse.  I felt a sudden and intense regret for having exposed my life and my family to the unknown "www".  I couldn't handle the idea of strangers seeing my precious daughter without me giving them some kind of permission.  And then I officially felt like a hypocrite.  I spend lots of time looking at blogs of other peoples lives and families and it never seems weird to me.  That's one of the reasons I love the blogs I read, because I can see their beautiful families and hear all about their personal experiences.  It almost makes it feel like I know these people when really I will never meet them in person. 

I decided to talk to my sister, who has had a successful blog for a few years now, about my feelings and she enlightened me to all the options you actually have as a blogger to keep from feeling so exposed.  So from now on I will be looking at and creating my blog a little differently than I had originally envisioned but important thing is that I get back at it, right?

The next post will be up shortly and will be WAY more interesting than this one.